Ahh, good. The chemo purse, more nicely known as the Magical Healing Purse.. is already working.
The last few days have been crazy. In amongst trips to buy and learn a ton about drugs..(no, not recreational, although maybe I’ll make them recreational) there were many calls from the hospital.. Can you come for chemo training? Can you come for a ct scan? Next day: Can you come for an ultrasound? Home again. An hour later: Can you come back for a mugga scan? Now that one made me laugh as I asked ‘what’s a mugga scan?” Like a mug ‘o coffee only more scan-like?
They really ought to name these tests in a more fun way. Even a little name.. mugga scan.. was able to switch my energy from ‘seriously.. something else?” to curiousity and a giggle.
Maybe when one begins this process, the questionnaire should say, “do you have a sense of humour?” and then we get funny names for our tests.
By the time of the muga scan, though, I was anxious. Really, people, I just want to play right now. I’ve learned too much, have still too many questions, so many unknowns. I just want to play. So two things happened that helped:
The muga scan is a long test for the heart, and radioactive, I might add. I decided I would see how relaxed I could get doing meditation. I thought it was rather cool when the alarms all went off because my heart beat had slowed so much. Good for me. An affirmation that I can calm and be peaceful during the days/ weeks to come. They changed settings so that wouldn’t happen and I actually then had a nice nap.
And then, hopping in my car to head home, I glanced in the mirror. And there were faerie dust sparkles on my face. That made me smile. My chemo purse is working.
Chemo Purse Recipe. aka Magical Healing Purse
Find a purse with many pockets. A big purse. Decorate zippers with trinkets (Mine: pirates, anchors, keys and brass pieces with words like ‘laughter’) Tuck inside: artist pens, tiny artist sketch cards, a deck of cards (oh! mine are pirates of the caribbean), a bundle of homemade inspiration cards from Jill. Current favourite book inserted. Include intention to actually draw directly on purse whenver you want. Add one pinch of faerie dust. Ta da! The purse is ready to inspire.
I loved that the faerie dust landed on my face today. Good purse.